I am sorely disappointed in the caliber of friend that I've chosen throughout my life.
Don't get me wrong, right now I have some wonderful friends that I've met through my boyfriend, but that's exactly what they are: my boyfriend's friends. They are great people and it seems like they like my company and care about Jarrod and I and thats nice. I just wish the people that I had chosen throughout my life had been more honest and loyal. Ashley is a wonderful friend and I love her to death and this post has nothing to do with her. She's always been there for me and even when he had our huge fight, we worked it out because that's what real friends do.
Its the other friends who don't return my calls, who don't bother to let me know that they won't make it to a special event in my life that deserves celebration after promising they would come. And in one case, forcing unltimatums on me to ensure their attendance. I had to ask one of my oldest friends not to bring his girlfriend to my party because of some stupid drama so another one of my oldest friends would come to my graduation party from UC Berkeley. So I did the awkward, uncomfprtable deed of asking Jon not to bring Courntey...who really is a nice girl...so that Matt would come, because his problem with Jon and Courtney outweighs his friendship with me. Then he didn't even show up. what the fuck? This was such a huge day for me and he knew it and he didn't even show up. The least he could have done was called and let me know he couldnt make it. He even texted me half way through the party to make sure Courtney wasn't there? How am I supposed to feel? He hasn't even called or texted me back to give me a reason. I'm so hurt.
All my best friends seem to do this to me. They all either leave me behind or stab me in the back. All of them except Ashley. She stuck around.
I may just give up on getting close to people.
What a stupid downer blog. On a lighter note, I have work today at my new job (which i am actually already starting to dislike. hahaha oh gosh)
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Matt has never struck me as a selfless person. He had so much of a problem taking me and Danny to socal, even though it wasn't really out of the way for him. Whatever.
But Amy...just because I'm your boyfriend's friend and got to know you mostly through him doesn't mean I'm not your friend! Jill would say that all the time and it hurt a bit. I mean, what would I have to do to qualify me as a friend? Just want you to be able to count on me.
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