So, I’ve been thinking a lot about what I am going to do for the next 5-10 years of my life and I’m starting to think that perhaps I am making a bad decision. I feel kind of like I am just settling or going the easy way. I mean, why shouldn’t I work my ass of and apply to Stanford Med? Harvard Med? Or Yale Med?
Why am I settling with a career as a lowly Physician Assistant? Is it what I really want? I really can’t tell what I want right now. I have a really great boyfriend who seems to be in it for the long haul (for now at least, you never know what is going to happen in the future). I want to do the whole family thing and I feel like PA is perfect for that. I want to work a 40 hour week and not be on call all the time and be able to cook my family dinner every night and take my kids to soccer practice and stuff. I want to be able to support them, too, though, and I have this weird mental hang up that if I’m not a doctor or a lawyer or an engineer I’m not going to be able to do that. I want to have a beautiful house with a big yard and a dog and the whole nine yards. And I’m kind of scared that I won’t be able to have that if I don’t make more sacrifices and go to medical school or marry a doctor or something. Is that weird? Am I just being crazy?
I don’t know what to do with my life. I wish someone could just tell me what to do. Like when I was little.
Song of the Day…
6 years ago
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Remember remember remember while you are working for that prestine future, to enjoy the present, whenever possible. Because that's all you REALLY have...
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The impending feeling of a bad decision seems to be haunting the lives of myself and a few others. Maybe it's the weather? In either case, you're a strong, intelligent, and incredible woman. I am absolutely positive that no matter what decision you make, you will still attain that perfect house, the perfect husband, and the beautiful family.
The Beauty of being a Woman is to be the complete and independent person that you would like to be- and at the same time create life and energy and gain that fulfillment!
And, let's not forget- the Beauty in Life is the ability to make choices and therefore determine your future! NEVER LET ANYONE DECIDE YOUR FATE. woops. left caps lock on.
You've got time, babygirl. spend some smelling flowers. =)
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