Releif

Today Jarrod had his court date for the fireworks incident...they let him off easy, thank God. I was freaking out all month long. They changed it to an infraction and are charging him a $250 fine. Way less than I was expecting.

Also, he told me that Shelley is doing much better. She is awake and they are probably going to be able to take her off of the breathing machine tomorrow. Thank God for that. It was so hard to see Jarrod and Tara and David and the whole family so upset and hurting and there was nothing that I could do. I'm so glad that she is going to be ok :)

Tonight I took a well deserved and needed break from school at work and went to the movies with Jarrod. We saw Where the Wild Things are...it was weird, but it was good. I, of course, cried at the end. During the previews Jarrod said that he wants to get a mini pot belly pig when we move out. I am totally ok with the piglet part because they are soooo cute, but then they turn into ugly pigs :( I don't know how I feel about the grown up pig part...

hrmm

haven't updated in a long time...I'll get on that as soon as I'm done with my midterms Wednesday and Thursday..well, I guess this actually counts as a half-assed update


I'll really update later.

"Well behaved women

rarely make history."



I love Marilyn Monroe

fatty

Why am I having such a hard fucking time losing weight and anna can lose 22lbs so fast? That lucky beetch. I need to really crack down. hardcore. starting NOW.


who's with me? Im walking with my girlfriends tomorrow and hitting the gym in the am on friday...probably around 10 or 11...anyone wanna join me? lemme know.

I'm gonna try to hit the gym tonight after work, too...working out at least 5 times a week and eating super healthy as often as I can is my new goal. I need this so bad. I really think its starting to affect my relationship. I was such a happy person when I was happy with my appearance, I want that self esteem and confidence back.

Chili's

I think my job is making me depressed. It's damaging to my self esteem and pride to be 22 years old, a graduate from one of the most prestigious universities in the country, and to work at Chili's as a hostess while 18 year olds who barely finished high school get more hours than me and make more money that me. I need a new job. I really feel terrible about my situation right now. At first it wasn't so bad, now its really getting to me. I need to find something that fits my school schedule and my intellect. I am just really depressed right now and I can't figure out what it is...I know that the job isn't helping, though.

you know

for you I'd bleed myself dry.



If you haven't heard Jem's version of Coldplay's "Yellow" you need to. I have it on my myspace...check it: http://www.myspace.com/amykabob

Dear little baby jesus,

please bless me with the money to move out of my parent's house.




i need a change. desperately. I find myself being unhappy here more often than not lately, like no one understands me. I know I can be hard to live with, but not everything that comes out of my mouth is nearly as evil as they imagine. its like no matter what I say or do it gets taken the wrong way, and I know its because I can be hard to live with and I have a short fuse, but still. I'm not a horrible person...even though my own family may think i am from time to time.


PS- going to Yosemite in a couple weeks. One of the most beautiful places in the country...possible even the world.